More to come.

After reading Donald Miller's Blog more and more, I am convinced that I am going about this blogging-thing wrong. I have only posted trivial matters about myself, and at best, have treated this blog as a place for me to post journal entries.

I am going to start developing a focus. I am not sure what it is yet, but I am going to start developing a focus to this blog. I want to help people learn to enjoy life more, and to live the one life they have in a better fashion.

So, I will be away this weekend, as I am going with my boss to a speaking gig he has, but I will be back. And hopefully, God willing, I will have a focus to it.

Josh

Defeated--quite.

Man, who knew one person could feel so down....

I should have seen this coming, in all honesty. With all the stuff I did for God yesterday, every ill-spirit in the spiritual world has my name on their head, and they want to finish me off.

If you don't believe that spiritual oppression is real--do something for God.

Every bad force in the spiritual world is pissed at me. I am alright with this. I just wish I didn't feel like dying.

I have felt so isolated all day, and I have felt so alone.

This is what comes with being a spiritual leader, I suppose. Oh how I hate it. All day I have felt as if everyone in the world, including those I care about the most, hate me. It is just so frustrating. I know truth, but I can't feel it.

I feel like I am utterly alone, again. Tomorrow it will be different. Right now, I just don't know what to do with myself. I am going to commit myself to prayer for a while; I can't even eat right now.

With any luck, I will have someone to talk to before I go to bed tonight. If not, it is going to be a long night.

Can a man work too hard?

I am feeling reflective, again. This has to be the curse of a blogger, is that we always have something we have been thinking about.

Curses.

Well, I am writing this from my bed, because I am sick. I just got done talking with my mom and she told me I shouldn't go to the office today and I just need to relax--fat chance.

I have so much work that needs to be done. I passed my Government and English classes with flying colors, but I still have to focus on my Trig. and Spanish classes. I have about half of each class left to get done in the next two weeks, well less than that!

How can I honestly afford to not work hard?

This week, with my internship responsibilities, I have to do so much. This Sunday, I am am: teaching a Sunday School class (which I am loving, it is on Crazy Love), leading worship for the church (this means practicing the songs all week), leading worship at youth group (I always do, but it still needs done), and I have to teach youth group!

How can one man have so many hats? With my church and school responsibilities--how on earth can I not work hard?

Things between the lady-friend (I will not put her name on the internet) and I are awesome! We have never been closer, and we seem to grow closer to each other day-by-day.

It is really amazing what happens between two people when they seek God first and allow Him to bring them together.

I know I haven't posted in a while, and I am sorry, but I am just busy. I will be home-free after the 22nd of this month. I am trusting God to get me there--I am sick and everything hurts.

I am in serious need of a hug, food, and coffee. I have enough Spanish to keep me busy for eternity....

God grant me peace, and make time slow down, that way I can get all of this done. And don't let it kill me in the process.

Blessings,

--Josh